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Re: day 249, bright and early!

[softlyfalling]

...seems like it.

[ suddenly, a little awkward, ]

...you kissed me, though?

[ sorry she's like. wrapping her head around all of this, belatedly, now that she's actually had a chance to think ]

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[420blazeit]

I did, but I didn't think things would escalate to this point. I do like you, Shrike. I think you're a very strong and very beautiful woman.

[ as soon as she's rinsed off she steps aside, motioning for her to step under the water. ]

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[softlyfalling]

[ combing her hair out a little bit, as she takes the spot under the showers—

oof, she's going to be sore, isn't she. ]

Th-thanks, I—

...gods I have such a weakness for small, assertive women.

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[420blazeit]

[ chuckles. ]

We all have our weaknesses. I... I'm sorry about that though. I think you started asking me about them in the middle of everything... [ as soon as shrike's finished she's going to start heading to the baths. a nice, long soak sounds absolutely divine right now. ]

I don't think I'll ever be completely used to them and what they do to me.

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[softlyfalling]

...they—I mean, do they make you do things you... don't want to do?

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[420blazeit]

No. It's... it's more like I just get wound up so much more easily. And it takes a lot more time to find my chill, so to speak.

[ on reaching the baths she's going to immediately get into the water and sink into it up to her neck; her tentacles winding around her. ]

Imagine having 4x the libido and sex drive.

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[softlyfalling]

........phew. That's a lot.

[ she takes a seat beside, folding her towel on top of her head. ]

...though, I was actually going to ask if... things are going all right with Kohime?

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[420blazeit]

[ the bunch of them immediately tighten around her. ]

...

It depends on your definition of alright. We've broken up, but we're still friendly with each other. Kohime deserves somebody that can dedicate themselves to her and her alone, and though I still love and care for her... that's not something I can do...

By the time she came along I was already in love with King and Nero and... she deserves the best, so as upset as I am that it ended I completely understand why it really just kind of... had to...

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[softlyfalling]

[ oh thank fuck she didn't sleep with kohime's girlfriend again ]

Oh... I'm sorry, though.

I'm glad at least that it wasn't as bitter as it could be.

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[420blazeit]

Mm, me too. [ sighs, tail swishing idly in the water. ]

If you could keep this to yourself until she tells you [ if she tells her. ] I'd appreciate that. I don't generally talk about my relationships, because people here like to gossip and I imagine I dealt with that enough back home.

It's part of the reason nobody knew about me and King for the longest time...

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[softlyfalling]

...mm, I get it. And if it's not people here it's the audience...

It's tough, either way.

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[420blazeit]

I don't care as much about the audience, since their opinions are just kind of... crazy a lot of the time. I mean, spending that much time in hell is bound to fuck up your head, but the people here can just be kind of... a pain, and my business is not any of their business.

I might be a bit of a showman, but my personal life is my own. Despite what it probably looks like I do like to keep the two separate. [ and she is kind of a private person. ]

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[softlyfalling]

...mm. No, it... makes sense.

I mean, it's hardly a pain, but the avante kids give me enough shit about my love life such that I wouldn't ask for more.

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[420blazeit]

I hope things simmer down for you. And Nero too.

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[softlyfalling]

...mm.

[ they will not. ]

I hope things are better for you otherwise?

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[420blazeit]

[ shrugs. ] Things are ok, I guess.

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[softlyfalling]

I guess I don't really know much about what you have going on...

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[420blazeit]

I'd like to do more things with you and, of course, Nero. I know he's been really busy lately, what with his family having all come here at once... and then the marriage thing and getting together with Jason...

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[softlyfalling]

[ i think technically this is before the proposal but timey wimey whatever this is interesting to talk about ]

...mm, it's a little hard—I mean, we're both people that share well, he and I, and but it's never—entirely easy, especially when someone else is going through a hard time.

We should actually try and make more plans, then. I know... well, when I was initially seeing Sekhmet and she was still seing Kohime, it was difficult, since I sort of felt like it was fair that she should be putting Kohime first especially since I basically ruined their relationship, but we hadn't actually pinned down what we were to each other, so I didn't feel like I could ask for much anyway...

I guess all that is to say that—maybe it's a good idea to talk about what you want out of a relationship with him? People have a lot of different ideas, so sometimes you have to nail things down, I guess...

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[420blazeit]

[ wups. ]

Agreed. I just like to do things, especially with the people I'm close to. I know this place kind of makes it difficult, since we never know when something's going to happen, but I would definitely like to do more. Like, we never got around to that double date.

I just know that Nero and I are boyfriend and girlfriend. I guess we've never really talked about what we are and what we want as a couple beyond that. It... definitely couldn't hurt.

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[softlyfalling]

[ ......sets a hand on her hair, gently, brushing her fingers through the strands

what do you do with the postcoital snuggle impulse in this kind of situation, anyway: she sure doesn't know. ]

He loves you. He wants you to be happy, so—I'm sure even if it's a little uncertain, he'd be glad to hear you talk about it.

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[420blazeit]

[ she's going to scoot closer when shrike puts her hand in her hair, so they can kind of do some snuggling. ]

Mm, at least we all have each other's best interest in mind and we want everybody else to be happy.

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[softlyfalling]

[ ////// ]

...yeah. Honestly, best anyone could ask for.

I'm, er... speaking of, I should... probably ask if... or, er... how you felt, about what just happened.

[ how the fuck do you ask "was that more than one-off interest there or nah" without it being super awkward ]

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[420blazeit]

I had a good time. [ she smiles down at the water. ] It was nice. I bet this is going to sound a little weird, but... I feel like I definitely got to know you a little better by, ah, getting intimidate with you. Like, I know a little bit more about you and... [ she smushes a hand into her face. ] It really does sound kind of dumb, huh?

Re: day 249, bright and early!

[softlyfalling]

No—it doesn't really sound dumb at all.

I mean, I—

[ she quirks a smile— ]

Well—I definitely learned a few things about you, today. But, it's sort of... I get what you mean. Kind of... getting to see a different side of someone.