Sometimes. I want to be more dependable, especially to my boys, but I always feel like I'm the one being comforted about something?
I also want to feel like... like I don't need to be afraid of doing something wrong all the time. That I can be a little rude and I won't get shot or my team targeted for it.
Kaguya and I had a bit of an argument going on for a bit, and we got it settled, eventually, by which I mean I managed to come up with an apology I felt like I could stand behind, but... well, it was a bit harrowing.
Ah, well, I was backing up someone's opinion who'd gotten into the argument in the first place in addition to being a bit frustrated... so I didn't want to apologize for that, but, er.
Apparently she thought of me as more of a friend than I realized, and also apparently most people don't find duels to be a culturally reasonable way to put an argument to rest...
I don't want you to have to feel like you're walking on coals trying to be inoffensive, though. I mean, if anyone's taking offense at you, they've probably been offended by one of the rest of us, first...
It doesn't make the fact that we have to deal with it regardless any better, but I can guarantee you that if someone decides to dislike us, if they say it's your fault I'll... I don't know. Tell them to fuck right off, I guess.
... That probably got him cranky, yeah. But also he has no room to talk when he's been calling someone his big sister and someone else his son.
[ Also all of Wild City's everything. ]
It's... true, that's a touchy subject for us. But you've been a really reliable and steady person to me since you've arrive and it means a lot to me. You're easily a senpai figure to me, a beloved one. And even if it's hypocritical of me to say so when I get cranky about Silver's relationships, you'd be what I want from an older sis.
I'm really glad, I... didn't really get along with my family growing up, I think, so... it feels a little selfish of me sometimes to think of things here that way, but.
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softlyfalling) wrote2019-02-12 07:23 pm
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What in particular, though?
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Or do I just seem sad all the time and you wouldn't want to add to my burdens? Er, you being the general you, not you-you.
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Now that I think of it, I'd say you're probably—one of the people on this unit I consider most reliable, but...
[ hm ]
...I think I get how you feel, though. Sometimes I feel that way, too.
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I also want to feel like... like I don't need to be afraid of doing something wrong all the time. That I can be a little rude and I won't get shot or my team targeted for it.
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Mm... I want to tell you should feel free to act however you want, but it's... sort of like with that last game, huh.
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Kaguya and I had a bit of an argument going on for a bit, and we got it settled, eventually, by which I mean I managed to come up with an apology I felt like I could stand behind, but... well, it was a bit harrowing.
And it's easy for things to escalate very fast.
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Apparently she thought of me as more of a friend than I realized, and also apparently most people don't find duels to be a culturally reasonable way to put an argument to rest...
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[ Folding his arms and burying his head into them. ]
... People are hard.
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I don't want you to have to feel like you're walking on coals trying to be inoffensive, though. I mean, if anyone's taking offense at you, they've probably been offended by one of the rest of us, first...
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You'd really say that?
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I suppose it's said that words can cut as well as blades, and if it's in defense of all of you—it's a lot easier for me to take up those arms.
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...but I want to try and be that kind of person, I think, for all of you.
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[ Wait. ]
- Inspiration, I mean. I want to be able to be that kind of person too.
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...I think maybe I said this to Silver while I was sobering up, which was probably a mistake, but I think of you as sort of a brother, you know.
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[ Also all of Wild City's everything. ]
It's... true, that's a touchy subject for us. But you've been a really reliable and steady person to me since you've arrive and it means a lot to me. You're easily a senpai figure to me, a beloved one. And even if it's hypocritical of me to say so when I get cranky about Silver's relationships, you'd be what I want from an older sis.
You are like an older sis.
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[ oh, she's getting misty-eyed, a little— ]
I'm really glad, I... didn't really get along with my family growing up, I think, so... it feels a little selfish of me sometimes to think of things here that way, but.
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