sad bird in snow: So good thing that seems like what Raven's doing sad bird in snow: Also admittedly sad bird in snow: when you've had sex involving at least two of them sad bird in snow: that's probably a pretty strong indicator that they like you?
sad bird in snow: ...all right that's fair sad bird in snow: That was maybe a little unnecessarily teasing. sad bird in snow: But it's a weird family, so the normal indicators are probably... off. sad bird in snow: Anyway if I get a vote by marriage I'll vote for you
sad bird in snow: ........though I guess I too am not solving this problem of sexual attraction versus familial feelings, sorry.
Morning☆Glory: I appreciate your support. Morning☆Glory: Which sounds a little sarcastic, but I really do. You're definitely part of it too, and the fact that you want me there too does mean a lot. Morning☆Glory: And it's fine, really Morning☆Glory: It's not like I necessarily MIND being sexually attracted to the entire family, it just does seem a bit weird. Morning☆Glory: Though I guess it's not like those things are always totally different... when you're talking about marriage and starting a family like that, that does usually involve sex? Morning☆Glory: So if you imagine that sort of thing expanded beyond the normal man and woman having kids, maybe it kind of makes sense a little...? Morning☆Glory: That kind of makes it sound like I'm marrying all of them, though, which doesn't seem right either.
sad bird in snow: I guess it's just... a lot of different ways of forming close bonds within a group of people, some of whom are related by blood and some of whom aren't sad bird in snow: And sometimes, I guess, that does definitely involve sex sad bird in snow: so I think there's probably something to that?
Morning☆Glory: Yeah. Morning☆Glory: I guess the thing is... I don't have much experience with ANY kind of close bonds with people. Morning☆Glory: I've tried to have them. And I HAVE messed it up a bunch of times. Dated A when we should have just been friends, wanted Taisho to be family when other people didn't... Morning☆Glory: So it's really hard for me to imagine just... waking up and being sure about it. Morning☆Glory: I care about them a lot. With all of them I was surprised how quickly and easily I felt like we understood each other, even though it was in different ways with everyone. It's comfortable, and it makes me happy. Morning☆Glory: So... I do feel like it's right, I think. That they're my family. Morning☆Glory: But I can't help thinking that maybe I'm wrong. Because when have I ever been right about that kind of thing? Morning☆Glory: And it being something so out of the ordinary doesn't help, because it's not like I have anything to look at and think... yeah, it's like that. Morning☆Glory: It's fine with me if it's something weird. I decided a while ago I wasn't going to be normal. Morning☆Glory: But I don't know how to stop being scared it's not actually anything.
sad bird in snow: I'm not sure most of them know what a family is supposed to feel like, either sad bird in snow: But I think that feeling you have is one to hold onto sad bird in snow: Because, I think that kind of comfortable understanding—that's the right instinct? sad bird in snow: It'll probably be hard for a while still, but you've got your supporters to lean on in the meantime.
Morning☆Glory: Yeah. Thank you. Morning☆Glory: And I think what you said about Nero pushing avante for it did mean something to me too, even if I can't be Nero. Morning☆Glory: Because it's true that the comfortable understanding is there, and that's mutual. I don't actually have any doubts about that part. Morning☆Glory: So, maybe I should think of it more like... pushing for putting a name to that, and for taking it a little bit further. The same way I might push them in any other kind of feelings direction when they're being dumb.
Morning☆Glory: I don't know about DEFINITELY Morning☆Glory: but I do feel a lot better talking it through Morning☆Glory: So thank you again. Morning☆Glory: At the very least I should probably talk to the rest of them about it... or get Raven to soon. I don't think being worried they're going to think the whole idea is ridiculous is helping me much.
sad bird in snow: Approaching it with him as a team would probably be pretty good, too sad bird in snow: I hope it goes well! I suppose there's no gods to pray to here, but I don't think you'll need a blessing, anyway.
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sad bird in snow: Also admittedly
sad bird in snow: when you've had sex involving at least two of them
sad bird in snow: that's probably a pretty strong indicator that they like you?
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Morning☆Glory: GENERALLY that doesn't indicate like in a family way, though, I'm pretty sure.
Morning☆Glory: Also, you don't need to say "at least"
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sad bird in snow: That was maybe a little unnecessarily teasing.
sad bird in snow: But it's a weird family, so the normal indicators are probably... off.
sad bird in snow: Anyway if I get a vote by marriage I'll vote for you
sad bird in snow: ........though I guess I too am not solving this problem of sexual attraction versus familial feelings, sorry.
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Morning☆Glory: Which sounds a little sarcastic, but I really do. You're definitely part of it too, and the fact that you want me there too does mean a lot.
Morning☆Glory: And it's fine, really
Morning☆Glory: It's not like I necessarily MIND being sexually attracted to the entire family, it just does seem a bit weird.
Morning☆Glory: Though I guess it's not like those things are always totally different... when you're talking about marriage and starting a family like that, that does usually involve sex?
Morning☆Glory: So if you imagine that sort of thing expanded beyond the normal man and woman having kids, maybe it kind of makes sense a little...?
Morning☆Glory: That kind of makes it sound like I'm marrying all of them, though, which doesn't seem right either.
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sad bird in snow: And sometimes, I guess, that does definitely involve sex
sad bird in snow: so I think there's probably something to that?
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Morning☆Glory: I guess the thing is... I don't have much experience with ANY kind of close bonds with people.
Morning☆Glory: I've tried to have them. And I HAVE messed it up a bunch of times. Dated A when we should have just been friends, wanted Taisho to be family when other people didn't...
Morning☆Glory: So it's really hard for me to imagine just... waking up and being sure about it.
Morning☆Glory: I care about them a lot. With all of them I was surprised how quickly and easily I felt like we understood each other, even though it was in different ways with everyone. It's comfortable, and it makes me happy.
Morning☆Glory: So... I do feel like it's right, I think. That they're my family.
Morning☆Glory: But I can't help thinking that maybe I'm wrong. Because when have I ever been right about that kind of thing?
Morning☆Glory: And it being something so out of the ordinary doesn't help, because it's not like I have anything to look at and think... yeah, it's like that.
Morning☆Glory: It's fine with me if it's something weird. I decided a while ago I wasn't going to be normal.
Morning☆Glory: But I don't know how to stop being scared it's not actually anything.
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sad bird in snow: But I think that feeling you have is one to hold onto
sad bird in snow: Because, I think that kind of comfortable understanding—that's the right instinct?
sad bird in snow: It'll probably be hard for a while still, but you've got your supporters to lean on in the meantime.
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Morning☆Glory: And I think what you said about Nero pushing avante for it did mean something to me too, even if I can't be Nero.
Morning☆Glory: Because it's true that the comfortable understanding is there, and that's mutual. I don't actually have any doubts about that part.
Morning☆Glory: So, maybe I should think of it more like... pushing for putting a name to that, and for taking it a little bit further. The same way I might push them in any other kind of feelings direction when they're being dumb.
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sad bird in snow: You've definitely got this!
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Morning☆Glory: but I do feel a lot better talking it through
Morning☆Glory: So thank you again.
Morning☆Glory: At the very least I should probably talk to the rest of them about it... or get Raven to soon. I don't think being worried they're going to think the whole idea is ridiculous is helping me much.
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sad bird in snow: I hope it goes well! I suppose there's no gods to pray to here, but I don't think you'll need a blessing, anyway.
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Morning☆Glory: Thank you, though.