...Kohime's going to think I keep stealing her girlfriends and also she knows where I sleep now.
[ but she comes over to sit next to her, knees folded up in front of her chest. ]
I'm admittedly starting to feel like I'm causing a lot of trouble with this, somehow... but also Nero told me about that, and I told Glory, since they're good friends, so she can at least help him work through that.
...but, well—I guess... I'm not very good at getting to know people except by... accident, or through someone else. I don't think I had very many friends before I was here.
Kohime and I... we aren’t together anymore. [ she curls her tail around herself. ] Kohime deserves somebody that’s going to devote themselves to her entirely and I... couldn’t manage that, not with how I’ve become.
I think it’s just kind of natural for something like this to happen, because, like I said, the bother of you have gathered quite a following and so many people one or both of you. [ she makes no comment on that next part. ] I do want you both to be happy. I guess I couldn’t help but want to be a little selfish too, since I’ve always felt so strongly for Nero. But that’s also... not fair...
No? It didn’t seem like there was much time for making friends back at your home. But we can just start hanging out more. Get to know what else the other likes.
Honestly I'm... probably less selfish than is actually good for anyone, but I... well, it'd be nice to be able to be everything to someone. I understand that feeling, I think.
And in any case, it's nicer to all be a team in love, rather than at odds, right?
Let's do it then. We could, like, plan a trip to the mall or something. I haven't checked it out proper, since it got here. I just kinda did so while I was off my rocker and when I was a kid.
But, yeah, pretty much. It makes it all a little bit easier, at least.
Ah—I guess I went there once or twice, recently, but I haven't really done so much exploring since—well, like you, it was for games, then... it'd be nice.
But I think we could just ask. You could ask? I could ask? Slash remind him that we've been meaning to for ages and keep getting derailed by dire circumstances?
N- No. But that could be something fun too. Like, all looking for stuff... together... especially if it's lingerie... though that stuff spends much time on anyway...
...asked him while we were still covered in blood from a game, because that's our sense of timing, I guess.
I'd... gotten the sense he'd been thinking about it, since he told me about his fantasy wedding ideas while extremely wasted at the roleplay wedding, so I... started to think he might say yes. It was kind of on impulse that I asked, but I'd been thinking about it since then, so...
[ she's going to chuckle at that. ] Nothing wrong with that. I mean, it's not like we ever get a break, and tensions and feelings tend to be high following a game, so... that's kind of cute. It makes it special.
[ ...oh. ] Yeah? I hope you're able to come up with something just as special here and... ah, [ now she feels like she's intruding. ] maybe I should really just leave it to you guys. Like, I could help! and that'll be nice, just knowing I was a part of it.
[ she's... really good at picking out tension in a conversation, and she's definitely feeling it... ]
...well, I know he's nervous about a lot of things, and making sure he's not disappointing all the people that care about him... so I think he'd like to know that you're thinking in that direction. So he can have time to think about it, like I did, maybe.
I wouldn't want you to feel like... an afterthought, or something. You should have time to have something that feels especially yours, too.
[ she just feels sort of bad all of a sudden. like, she can't believe she asked this. ] And something like this might make it worse. If he's already got enough jitters, then I certainly don't want to add to them. I... I'm not disappointed. I'm proud of him. Did I ever tell you about when we first met...
[ her tail moves out from around them and starts swishing back and forth. ]
But you should too! It's your special day, Shrike.
...I didn't mean to make everyone feel so bad, with this. I feel like I hurt a lot of people, and... it's selfish of me, probably. But I can't undo it, and it felt right. Like there wasn't anything else I could have done.
But I guess I'm just saying... he's not going anywhere. He loves you, in a way that's special and unique and that I am sometimes jealous of, honestly. So there's no need to rush.
I know you didn't. I did. And I don't want to, because this should be all, like, sunshine and rainbows and stuff. [ she shakes her head. ] We all know you didn't intentionally hurt anybody. Like, it's not like I think you did this to spite me or anything. And I'm sure the others feel the same. It's not like you can help when love calls. It just sorta... does...
Don't feel guilty.
Like I was kind of saying earlier. I sort of fell for Nero immediately. It's not like I'd been able to help that, because the heart wants what the heart wants. God, I remember during the speed dating game King used charm on him and made him get all mushy at him, and because Nero wanted us to take things slow, because of, well, y'know, his upbringing and junk, I got so ticked. [ a halfhearted laugh. ] But, ah, that's a bit off topic.
...
No, he's not, and our feelings aren't going anywhere either. [ she hopes. ] Shriiiiike. [ ribs her. ] You know sometimes I get jealous of what the both of you have too, right. It's just human nature. [ moves an arm around her instead of her tail this time. ] But he loves us both, right, so... that's what matters most?
Yeah, I—I'm not trying to... say anything about who loves who the most, here, or be say anything about anyone else's relationship, so...
It's really hard. He and I are both kind of traditional and domestic together, so it felt like the best label to put on it...
—I mean, I guess meeting someone on your unit is always going to be a little odd, because he threatened to punch me the second we met if I didn't give him answers. But after that once I got to know him, I... realized how much I wanted to give him a family and a home. I'm glad he has lots of people who love him in different ways.
But if you want to marry him, too, go for it. If you want to marry both of us I want to get to know you a little better first, but I like you plenty and I have no idea what the future holds because every day surprises me.
But don't feel like you have to, also, I guess, to be special to him? You already are.
It makes sense. I... heh, I feel like I'm not all that traditional, maybe. [ rubs the back of her neck. ] Or, like, it's not something I have thought about too often. I... I'm usually off doing something stupid. [ her lips for a tight line. ] But... I'm real glad he's got somebody like you that's capable of giving him something like that. He definitely deserves it, since his own family and home hadn't been... [ trails off. ]
Me too. He deserves all the love. [ she picks up a stone. ] I think we should get to know each other a bit better regardless of what ends up happening. And not that I know a lot about weddings, but I'd like to help too, if that's alright. [ nudge nudge nudge. ] Bachelorette~ party~ And we should absolutely try to surprise Nero one of these days with a threesome. I bet he'd look good in the middle of a hot girl sandwich. [ chuckles. ]
And don't apologize. Feelings are just a lot in general.
But I think starting with a threesome might be best, especially if Nero's feeling all I need to make sure everybody's happy and stuff. How about we do our best to make him happy. [ smirks. ] And if it works out, then we can roll straight on into foursome territory.
I mean [ she has to chuckle. ] I'm kind of my own threesome? foursome?? But it'll definitely be more fun with the both of you.
I think planning stuff is just going to bite us in the ass... like it normally does. I mean, c'mon, how long have we been trying to get together for a double date? Since forever?
If you're busy you can tell me, and I can jump the both of you tomorrow morning. [ her smirk darkens mischievously. ] We could start the day off right, and then maybe go to the mall afterward.
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[ but she comes over to sit next to her, knees folded up in front of her chest. ]
I'm admittedly starting to feel like I'm causing a lot of trouble with this, somehow... but also Nero told me about that, and I told Glory, since they're good friends, so she can at least help him work through that.
...but, well—I guess... I'm not very good at getting to know people except by... accident, or through someone else. I don't think I had very many friends before I was here.
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I think it’s just kind of natural for something like this to happen, because, like I said, the bother of you have gathered quite a following and so many people one or both of you. [ she makes no comment on that next part. ] I do want you both to be happy. I guess I couldn’t help but want to be a little selfish too, since I’ve always felt so strongly for Nero. But that’s also... not fair...
No? It didn’t seem like there was much time for making friends back at your home. But we can just start hanging out more. Get to know what else the other likes.
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Honestly I'm... probably less selfish than is actually good for anyone, but I... well, it'd be nice to be able to be everything to someone. I understand that feeling, I think.
And in any case, it's nicer to all be a team in love, rather than at odds, right?
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But, yeah, pretty much. It makes it all a little bit easier, at least.
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There's some really good crepes there, too.
[ experimentally—leans against her shoulder. ]
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Is that, like, a flat pancake?
[ she doesn't seem to mind and just coils her tail around them both. ] Will you help me think of a way to ask him?
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It's like... a thin pancake with things inside?
But I think we could just ask. You could ask? I could ask? Slash remind him that we've been meaning to for ages and keep getting derailed by dire circumstances?
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she's there. ]
Wait you, you didn't ask formally? [ tilts her head, confused. ]
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Ohhhhhh ask him about that. Sorry, I got—confused, by the topic change, I thought you meant about the mall...
But—well. About marriage, then?
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N- No. But that could be something fun too. Like, all looking for stuff... together... especially if it's lingerie... though that stuff spends much time on anyway...
[ she just turns an even darker shade of red. ]
M- Mm.
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...asked him while we were still covered in blood from a game, because that's our sense of timing, I guess.
I'd... gotten the sense he'd been thinking about it, since he told me about his fantasy wedding ideas while extremely wasted at the roleplay wedding, so I... started to think he might say yes. It was kind of on impulse that I asked, but I'd been thinking about it since then, so...
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[ ...oh. ] Yeah? I hope you're able to come up with something just as special here and... ah, [ now she feels like she's intruding. ] maybe I should really just leave it to you guys. Like, I could help! and that'll be nice, just knowing I was a part of it.
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[ she's... really good at picking out tension in a conversation, and she's definitely feeling it... ]
...well, I know he's nervous about a lot of things, and making sure he's not disappointing all the people that care about him... so I think he'd like to know that you're thinking in that direction. So he can have time to think about it, like I did, maybe.
I wouldn't want you to feel like... an afterthought, or something. You should have time to have something that feels especially yours, too.
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[ her tail moves out from around them and starts swishing back and forth. ]
But you should too! It's your special day, Shrike.
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grips her shoulders ]
I'm not saying that it'll make it worse. Just—
...I didn't mean to make everyone feel so bad, with this. I feel like I hurt a lot of people, and... it's selfish of me, probably. But I can't undo it, and it felt right. Like there wasn't anything else I could have done.
But I guess I'm just saying... he's not going anywhere. He loves you, in a way that's special and unique and that I am sometimes jealous of, honestly. So there's no need to rush.
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Don't feel guilty.
Like I was kind of saying earlier. I sort of fell for Nero immediately. It's not like I'd been able to help that, because the heart wants what the heart wants. God, I remember during the speed dating game King used charm on him and made him get all mushy at him, and because Nero wanted us to take things slow, because of, well, y'know, his upbringing and junk, I got so ticked. [ a halfhearted laugh. ] But, ah, that's a bit off topic.
...
No, he's not, and our feelings aren't going anywhere either. [ she hopes. ] Shriiiiike. [ ribs her. ] You know sometimes I get jealous of what the both of you have too, right. It's just human nature. [ moves an arm around her instead of her tail this time. ] But he loves us both, right, so... that's what matters most?
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It's really hard. He and I are both kind of traditional and domestic together, so it felt like the best label to put on it...
—I mean, I guess meeting someone on your unit is always going to be a little odd, because he threatened to punch me the second we met if I didn't give him answers. But after that once I got to know him, I... realized how much I wanted to give him a family and a home. I'm glad he has lots of people who love him in different ways.
But if you want to marry him, too, go for it. If you want to marry both of us I want to get to know you a little better first, but I like you plenty and I have no idea what the future holds because every day surprises me.
But don't feel like you have to, also, I guess, to be special to him? You already are.
...sorry, that was a lot.
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Me too. He deserves all the love. [ she picks up a stone. ] I think we should get to know each other a bit better regardless of what ends up happening. And not that I know a lot about weddings, but I'd like to help too, if that's alright. [ nudge nudge nudge. ] Bachelorette~ party~ And we should absolutely try to surprise Nero one of these days with a threesome. I bet he'd look good in the middle of a hot girl sandwich. [ chuckles. ]
And don't apologize. Feelings are just a lot in general.
But thank you for saying that. [ /// ]
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[ ////// ]
...didn't he say you proposed a foursome?
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But I think starting with a threesome might be best, especially if Nero's feeling all I need to make sure everybody's happy and stuff. How about we do our best to make him happy. [ smirks. ] And if it works out, then we can roll straight on into foursome territory.
I mean [ she has to chuckle. ] I'm kind of my own threesome? foursome?? But it'll definitely be more fun with the both of you.
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[ she was already kind of blushing, but her cheeks go fully that dark color again. ]
Maybe if we, er... all three of us have a bit of a... day out, together, sometime soon, then.
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How about tonight?
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[ sweats, ]
I... you know, I guess... why not.
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Tomorrow... might work better? I was also going to see Hlasoh today, too, and I—may very well end up having a late night, but...
[ gives her a Look. ]
I'm thinking that's probably going to be a strong maybe on the mall, though.
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