Demeter: His memories are back, if that is what you mean. But their return has done little to improve what was lost during the cards game. Demeter: Regardless, I know that I cannot rely on him to respect me when he is like this. Perhaps I never could have relied upon such a thing at all. Demeter: May I leave my naginata and staff with avante?
sad bird in snow: Imagine me making the longest sigh I can sad bird in snow: It reminds me of the time I took Nitro to him for a bad cough, but though he gave him treatment he refused to explain to either of us what the matter was... sad bird in snow: Do you get along normally?
Demeter: I'm sorry, Cardigan, I meant to tell you about it much sooner. The idea was poorly informed, and I had yet to fully decide what I most desired to do, going forward.
Demeter is typing . . . Demeter is typing . . . Demeter is typing . . .
Demeter: I believed that ZRAEL targeted LiliS because of what I believed should be done about Eclipse's murderers. If they wanted me dead for such a thing, and would take such an underhanded route as targeting us using a game, I decided a duel to the death would be sufficient to resolve things. Requiem herself was, I learned only later, in no emotional place to correct me. Fortunately, her ambivalence was all too apparent in her combat, and I got the truth from her before killing her. Demeter: Cobalt and Leviathan both agreed to assist so that the quarrel need never leave the space of our temporary battleground, but who can say whether that, or my choice to end things before either of us was truly hurt, has had any impact on John's opinion—or indeed if he even knows anything beyond my being a "brutal" woman who has behaved in a way he will fit to his worst expectations.
Demeter: And no, Shrike, we have never gotten along, if it were not already obvious from what I have said. But I believed we were friends, despite all of that.
Demeter: She seemed to, when I insisted on it. But she was only telling me what she thought I needed to hear, for fear that I would think her a coward if she gave me reason not to fight her.
Demeter: In truth, I do not think either of us is doing very well right now. I am glad that I did not truly go through with the final strike.
sad bird in snow: He’s clearly heard about this second-hand, and honestly— sad bird in snow: He’s your unitmate. He should ask you about what happened rather than just deciding what he thinks is necessary.
Demeter: I should speak with her soon—Requiem, that is. Knowing her, she will have wanted space from me, but perhaps a week is long enough. Demeter: And thank you, Cardigan. I hope it does not come to that, but if this is who John is once he finally decides to take some damned responsibility for the unit, then he is no longer someone whose presence I can bear. I will be talking to him about this, just as soon as I've entrusted you both with my weapons.
Demeter: In that case, you can expect me at avante's dorm shortly. I owe both of you my deepest gratitude, and will endeavor to keep you updated on the situation.
sad bird in snow: Oh. She isn't mad at me too, is she? sad bird in snow: We've been getting along all right, so I don't know if I might be able to help, somehow
Demeter: I've already spoken with Maki, so her feelings are, for better or worse, no surprise to me. With that said, I truly believed we had at least reached some level of mutual understanding. How unfortunately typical at is for me to be mistaken on that front once again. Demeter: In any event, you can expect me shortly.
[ —And indeed, there's a short, deliberate knock on avante's door about five minutes later.
Outside, Amaranth is standing, naginata sheathed on her back, mouth set in something approximating a smile, though she doesn't look the least bit happy. ]
At least for my part, it feels like the least I could do. I'm sorry it's been so difficult; you've been a great help to me on many occasions, after all.
...what you said after we killed, er, Amy—it meant a lot to me.
That's how you should feel, since you're certainly mine. [This said casually in response to Amaranth's comment. Then they look curiously between Amaranth and Shrike, unaware of the specifics.]
...Cardigan, you're surely aware I don't really... get angry often if at all, so, ah, with the game effect... I was a little out of control when we went after the killers from ZRAEL. She was very patient with me.
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Demeter: Regardless, I know that I cannot rely on him to respect me when he is like this. Perhaps I never could have relied upon such a thing at all.
Demeter: May I leave my naginata and staff with avante?
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sad bird in snow: We can put them in the war room?
sad bird in snow: is this about the duel?
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sad bird in snow: It reminds me of the time I took Nitro to him for a bad cough, but though he gave him treatment he refused to explain to either of us what the matter was...
sad bird in snow: Do you get along normally?
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Demeter is typing . . .
Demeter is typing . . .
Demeter is typing . . .
Demeter: I believed that ZRAEL targeted LiliS because of what I believed should be done about Eclipse's murderers. If they wanted me dead for such a thing, and would take such an underhanded route as targeting us using a game, I decided a duel to the death would be sufficient to resolve things. Requiem herself was, I learned only later, in no emotional place to correct me. Fortunately, her ambivalence was all too apparent in her combat, and I got the truth from her before killing her.
Demeter: Cobalt and Leviathan both agreed to assist so that the quarrel need never leave the space of our temporary battleground, but who can say whether that, or my choice to end things before either of us was truly hurt, has had any impact on John's opinion—or indeed if he even knows anything beyond my being a "brutal" woman who has behaved in a way he will fit to his worst expectations.
Demeter: And no, Shrike, we have never gotten along, if it were not already obvious from what I have said. But I believed we were friends, despite all of that.
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Demeter: In truth, I do not think either of us is doing very well right now. I am glad that I did not truly go through with the final strike.
Demeter is typing . . .
[ but the typing notification goes away ]
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sad bird in snow: He’s your unitmate. He should ask you about what happened rather than just deciding what he thinks is necessary.
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Cardigan: You know you can stay at Avante too.
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Demeter: And thank you, Cardigan. I hope it does not come to that, but if this is who John is once he finally decides to take some damned responsibility for the unit, then he is no longer someone whose presence I can bear. I will be talking to him about this, just as soon as I've entrusted you both with my weapons.
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sad bird in snow: But please let us know if you need anything else.
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sad bird in snow: We've been getting along all right, so I don't know if I might be able to help, somehow
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Demeter: In any event, you can expect me shortly.
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Outside, Amaranth is standing, naginata sheathed on her back, mouth set in something approximating a smile, though she doesn't look the least bit happy. ]
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Here. Come on in.
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Thank you, Shrike.
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No need to be so formal.
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You're both doing me a service, and I'm grateful for it.
Avante has been as a second family to me in many ways, and this...
Well, it feels a bit like another part of that.
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...what you said after we killed, er, Amy—it meant a lot to me.
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—And I'm glad, Shrike. If, even after all this, my ideals have held meaning to you, then perhaps they may still find some worth.
[ ...though it's up to Shrike whether to go into more detail than that. ]
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...Cardigan, you're surely aware I don't really... get angry often if at all, so, ah, with the game effect... I was a little out of control when we went after the killers from ZRAEL. She was very patient with me.