I'm not... trying to keep you at a distance, or anything, it's just, well—

...sometimes I don't have the words for what I'm feeling, or don't quite know how to explain it to other people yet? It's not like "you're not important enough to know," and the last time I saw you before everything went to shit, that was... fresh.

[ she makes a wobbly see-saw motion with her hand. ]

So, it was sort of... not quite settled in my head, yet.

...but, as far as your feelings... what would help?