Morning☆Glory (Harukawa Maki) ([personal profile] rollplayinghouse) wrote in [personal profile] softlyfalling 2020-06-24 08:56 am (UTC)

Re: Day 254 morning

Morning☆Glory: Yeah.
Morning☆Glory: I guess the thing is... I don't have much experience with ANY kind of close bonds with people.
Morning☆Glory: I've tried to have them. And I HAVE messed it up a bunch of times. Dated A when we should have just been friends, wanted Taisho to be family when other people didn't...
Morning☆Glory: So it's really hard for me to imagine just... waking up and being sure about it.
Morning☆Glory: I care about them a lot. With all of them I was surprised how quickly and easily I felt like we understood each other, even though it was in different ways with everyone. It's comfortable, and it makes me happy.
Morning☆Glory: So... I do feel like it's right, I think. That they're my family.
Morning☆Glory: But I can't help thinking that maybe I'm wrong. Because when have I ever been right about that kind of thing?
Morning☆Glory: And it being something so out of the ordinary doesn't help, because it's not like I have anything to look at and think... yeah, it's like that.
Morning☆Glory: It's fine with me if it's something weird. I decided a while ago I wasn't going to be normal.
Morning☆Glory: But I don't know how to stop being scared it's not actually anything.

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